My brain is SO weird.
No for real, like seriously weird. In a not-so-normal kind of way. I've always said that I sometimes don't feel like I am programmed the same way as most people... But this is just another example of why I feel that way.
When I am letting go of something, really letting go of it, I start having dreams about vomiting. Every single night, someone in my dream-world will puke. Usually they will puke ON me, but not always... It is a recurring dream that I have only during these times of significant change in my life.
See? I told you... SO WEIRD!
The first time this happened was back in college. I was just 3 weeks from graduation, and the puke-dreams started. It could be a simple dream like walking across campus and a random student would puke on me. I remember another dream where I was at a club with a bunch of friends, and every single one of my friends vomited on me.
I started to wonder if my brain (or more accurately, my subconscious mind) was trying to tell me something. I started reading about dream analysis, and symbolism... What I came to discover was that the act of vomiting in a dream can be indicative of the expulsion of subconscious emotions. In other words... it's basically the ultimate brain-purge.
Over the past 6 years, since the puke-dreams originated, they have happened only 2 other times. Once being the weeks leading up to Alyza's birth. The other time being just this past week. Yes, that is right. This morning I woke up from my 4th puke-dream this week. The dreams usually only show up when I am really close to letting-go, and they usually stop once I have done so...
I was talking about this with a friend recently and she told me that she had something similar, but instead of puke, she would be visited by a white unicorn in her dreams.
I feel sort of cheated. She got a white unicorn, and I got vomit?
Actually................ yup, that's pretty par for the course with me.
But it's sort of funny. It's almost like I wait for it now. I know I will truly be healed (or at least be able to overcome whatever obstacle is causing my brain strife) when I see vomit in my dreams. And you'd think dreaming about people vomiting on me would be kind of gross and stressful, but actually when I wake up from one of those dreams, I feel great big HUGE amounts of release. It's like when you are little (and sick), and your Mom says "just puke and get it over with, you will feel better, let it go!" But you're scared, so you don't want to. My brain is telling me... just puke it out, get it over with, let it go!
I love my brain.
I have recurring dreams that I am still in school and that I just found out that I have a class that I have not been to all semester. I've been out of grad school for 4 years, yet these still get to me.
Sunday night I had a dream that I was at work, so I woke up Monday morning thinking it was Tuesday. I feel robbed! Work invading my dreams! This has been beneficial before, because more than once has my subconcious worked out the solution to my problems- and once it was really technical!
Posted by: Meg E | July 13, 2007 at 11:26 AM
LOL...you just made my night with this one!
Posted by: Kim | July 13, 2007 at 12:30 AM
So apparently from these past puke/dream episodes it has turned out to be a good thing. Purging it out. Like when you are sick you always feel better after you puke.... Remember after the rains come rainbows you are on your way...
Posted by: Dee | July 12, 2007 at 10:17 PM
I'm like that too....I have strange dreams when I have a deadline of some sort, like a final in college, starting a new job that kind of thing. I always have a dream that I did something stupid and totally forgot my deadline. One time I over slept and missed a final and drove frantically to get to school and drove into a lake or something like that. And when I started a new job, I missed my first day because I was too busy at the mall shopping for my new job that I forgot to show up for. The brain is a crazy thing!
Posted by: Sue | July 12, 2007 at 04:59 PM